Sometimes I’d fake a stomachache to get out of going to youth group. I couldn’t explain that I didn’t want to go because there would most definitely be some kind of game. A night alone in my room with my computer screen playing downloaded YouTube videos of old TV shows or reading a book was preferable. Yet on the occasions that I did go, it wasn’t always so bad. Sometimes I’d quietly laugh at something funny the guys did or listen to the latest gossip from the girls and feel a little bit more like a normal teenager. Sometimes I’d even win the game. Other times I’d count the minutes until I could go home and think of a way to get out of next week’s meeting because even though I just did what I was afraid of, gathering the mental energy to try and do it again didn’t sound fun.
I feel like nobody talks about these specific traveling struggles (and the struggle of feeling stagnant at home while it seems like everyone and their mother’s in Europe) I appreciate your unfiltered vulnerability in this piece 🫶
I felt all of this so hard! Eating was a constant issue for me when I went to London a few months ago, especially with meeting so many new people and going new places. My social anxiety simply couldn't handle it and I ended up eating in (partly also cuz it's expensive as hell in London) rather than going out. I think it was the worst it's acted up since college. BUT when I was by myself, I was fine for exactly the reasons you talked about! It's so much easier to be on your own and I also sometimes worry I've gotten too comfortable by myself, but I'm also working on being more comfortable being around people and doing new things because I want so badly do all of it!
I sometimes get down on myself for having such a hard time doing these things, but reading articles like yours really help to remind me that I'm not alone in how I feel and what I'm experiencing 🫶🏻 thank you so much for sharing <3333
As a person with social anxiety myself, I related to this on every word. It's terrifying to be with people(friends) but isn't that the sole purpose of life finding things we love. As you said I am way too comfortable being alone and I feel like missing on life somehow. I always had big dreams but anxiety makes it impossible to take a step forward.
This was beautiful.🥹 I hope you live every moment of your life to the fullest.💗😍
I feel like nobody talks about these specific traveling struggles (and the struggle of feeling stagnant at home while it seems like everyone and their mother’s in Europe) I appreciate your unfiltered vulnerability in this piece 🫶
Thank you! Ugh yes we’re about to be bombarded with everyone’s European summer posts lol.
I felt all of this so hard! Eating was a constant issue for me when I went to London a few months ago, especially with meeting so many new people and going new places. My social anxiety simply couldn't handle it and I ended up eating in (partly also cuz it's expensive as hell in London) rather than going out. I think it was the worst it's acted up since college. BUT when I was by myself, I was fine for exactly the reasons you talked about! It's so much easier to be on your own and I also sometimes worry I've gotten too comfortable by myself, but I'm also working on being more comfortable being around people and doing new things because I want so badly do all of it!
I sometimes get down on myself for having such a hard time doing these things, but reading articles like yours really help to remind me that I'm not alone in how I feel and what I'm experiencing 🫶🏻 thank you so much for sharing <3333
thank you for your lovely comment as always summer 🫶🏻 I feel bad saying that I’m glad so many people can relate but it does bring me some comfort!
As a person with social anxiety myself, I related to this on every word. It's terrifying to be with people(friends) but isn't that the sole purpose of life finding things we love. As you said I am way too comfortable being alone and I feel like missing on life somehow. I always had big dreams but anxiety makes it impossible to take a step forward.
This was beautiful.🥹 I hope you live every moment of your life to the fullest.💗😍
Thank you so much! 🫶🏻 I hope you can overcome your struggles with social anxiety and live the life you want too 💕💕